today's morning was like so stressful. almost all of us were like trying to study physic, note i said ALMOST. yani was like screaming at her ytop of her voice" DONT NEED TO STUDY LAH!"
hello? does she know she's irritating? i cant stand her. like people are trying to study, cant she use her bloody brain? mmm, does she even have one? okay so back to physic, i dont know wassup with the teachers? what's with the stupid independent learning things? and cant they like see we are SUPER busy?
i think i'm gonna have another breakdown one of these days again, probably before the chem common test!! i almost broke down today, i was on the verge of crying, like my eyes teared halfway in the middle of lessons a few times once i thought abt how i haven't finished studying physic. i was like walking down to the courtyard for assembly alone and i almost like really cried at that point of time, maybe not only because of the physic, probably because of a couple of other reasons. seriously, i need to do some self-reflection.
geog was okay, kept myself busy from copying notes, was really quiet throughout the whole of the time before recess. ahdiah realised that, i know that too. i was afraid to open my mouth in case my tears just flow out or i will just scream at someone for no reason. i dont want that to happen! the rest was okay, wasnt talking like i said. sorry clarice i didnt mean to do that. i'm just really stressed out! ):
after recess i was much better after some food. okay eng! something worth talking about. lol
cheryl was going crazy! firstly, she sang mockingbird in some indian way[rochelle sang some parts too]. hahahs was really funny cheered me up! (: then she started going crazy and was like acting like some fan of clarice. and she was like " OMG! the clarice just looked and me!" stuffs like that. hahahs and we were like if clarice were to hug cheryl, cheryl will probably die from a heart attack. what was scary was, cheryl was laughing and laughing like a lunatic at her own joke, when we were quite blurred at what was happening. and she started laughing till she cried.
it was SO scary! like all her tears just suddenly came out. woah!

PHYSIC TEST! the stupid thing. it was like all MCQs! omg and the test like made all of us so worked out! i was so pissed with yao! the questions were like stupid, 20 MCQs! and it made me wanna cry and just burst. i mean it's a relief that the test was not difficult. but what the fcuk, cos of this test my mood for the day was like down in the drain cos of it. i mean really DOWN can? GRR!! i'm so pissed. ):<
i'm gonna study real hard for the chem test in 2 weeks time, i swear i'm gonna show my mum i'm not slacking, i working hard to achieve what i want!

some people are so stupid!!!
i seriously need a book called "10000000001 ways to understand xx"
not going to mention his name!
what's his prob!?!?!
cant he be like others?
why is so petty?
seriously what the fcuk is his problem?

i've been having nightmares for 2 days straight[those with the ghosts and stuffs]. it's depriving me from sleep. went to school today, planned to study my chem for the quiz and then write a letter to my angel, but somehow i fell asleep while studying chem. ): i hope the mr nightmare wont find me tonight! i seriously need some sleep.

okay so i was dying in chem, was lost once again! i need to start studying chem after my physic test. in chinese i was asleep at the end. during the whole of english i slept cos ms tan didnt teach! thanks to her! (: i got back some of my energy.

then came home studied my lit!!
did something useful at last!
been feeling so useless recently

the flowing time
rushes past by
i sit in my corner
waiting alone
i watch the world change
i watch everything fly
i watch you pass
with all the past thrown
i want no more waiting
i want no more pain
i gotta wake up
to the future ahead
nothing aint waiting for me
nothing aint stopping
i've gotta earn
the wish i wait upon

just back from dinner, whoo i think my tummy is gonna burst. i ate rice then i was still hungry so i told my mum. and my mum is crazy, she ordered steak for me! my gosh, she's in a good mood man. she said i need the nutrients cos i lost everything during the 2 weeks when i was sick.
alot of people said my face is like SO thin. mmm i don see any difference but yea whatever. i'm gonna do 150 situps later (: tata just updating for fun

i'm bored that's why i'm here blogging
i'm having butt cramps for some reasons
lumdeedum! i'm SO BORED!!

i have been having pneumonia for the past week
and i didnt know
how wonderfully amazing?
:(
my stomach is hurting now
i dono why
i have been like puking after i eat my medicine
cos i'm coughing too hard
.......
i hate it!
i want to be normal and healthy RIGHT NOW!!!!


i'm watching high on life now
TAUFIK!!
he's on screen now!! yay
byebye

march holidays have been like horrible for me
i have been like sick
high fever for 4 days, break record
yesterday actually okay already then suddenly in the evening my temperature went up to 39.2 degrees
then wanted to go see doctor again
but my family doctor's clinic dont open on thur's night
so had no choice my mum decided that i should try a chinese physcian instead
then the doctor is creepy lah
he's like really white! and wear this pair of huge specs which reaaly magnifies his eyes!
then he talk very little and just keeps starring!
omg!
i was like why am i here that kind of thing.
and the medicine is HORRIBLE!
i have to drink like alot of 3 times a days!
gosh! torture!
i'm so sick of medicines and coughing and coughing throughout the night
i cant sleep of the coughs then early in the morning i will cough again and be unable the sleep
-hits chest- what the hell is wrong with my lungs?!
and i'm sick of fish soup porrige too
i have been eating the same things over and over again
my tastebuds are going numb
i wanna go out and catch a movie with my friends
i'm like missing so many things
i really want to watch "a series of unforunate events"
but i cant cos i'm sick!
why must i be sick?
i was like supposed to go out yesterday?
argh!!!
everything sucks!!



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